P.S. I still love you - Part 2
80Dear Natasha,
I know I have disappointed you alot in these 3 years. You had certain expectations from me which I have failed to fulfill.
I know Iam not the kind of guy women dream of. Iam boring, absentminded and workaholic. I admit today that I somehow took our marriage for granted.
But today I feel that my own negligence is costing my marriage. I cannot allow it deteriorate further. I know I have let you down but today through this letter I want to tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to my life.
3 years have gone by but it hasn’t made me change the way I look at you; on the contrary, the desire to love you and to have you all to myself grows bigger and bigger with every passage of time. Today I may fall short of poetic knowledge but my feelings will speak.
To know that you exist in my life is a fountain of joy and agony for me. Your presence lightens up my day, but the distance I created between us deeply saddens my heart.
I wish I had an algorithm which would have told me the ways I could have been close to you right from day 1 of our marriage, to show you my affection in the most companionable way and to feel your presence as something more natural. But marriage is not about algorithms or formulas. You learn as you move along.
If love is such a celebrated feeling, the pain that I have inflicted on both of us is the most horrible one.
I know I have been too mechanical in bed, but it was only due to my inhibitions. I have always enjoyed your presence, your intimacy, the cuteness and fragility of your gestures, and your boldness in bed. Your skin gives me all the gratification when it touches mine
I have been a loner, because I have dedicated my life to work. I have missed much in life because I did not have a companion, a friend, someone whom I could speak my heart out to. You are the companion that I have desired for so long. You are the friend with whom I want to share my innermost feelings with. You have been a loving and supportive wife to me. I will go all out to be a loving and supportive husband to you. I want to help you carry life's burdens with élan and encourage you in the best way I can. I want you Natasha to achieve all your dreams you have set for yourself to achieve.
Natasha, I want to be your eyes so that if tomorrow you miss out on a beautiful thing, I will see it for you and you will feel it. I want to be your ears so that if some bad things are said you shouldn’t get disturbed. I want to be your hands so that tomorrow if you are searching that salt box in kitchen and if your hands don’t reach there, I will get it for you. I want to be your fingers so that tomorrow when we get old, I will be able to cut your hair from your nose. I want to be your legs so that if tomorrow if you are tired and not able to walk, I will take you in my arms and carry you to your destination.
Natasha, I love the way you smile at me when Iam feeling down. I love the way you keep pestering me for attending the parties you organize, I love the way your eyebrows become big when you argue with me, I love that you are last person to speak to before I go to sleep and first person to see when I get up in the morning.
Natasha, I adore you from the bottom of my heart and you are God’s most beautiful creation till date. If today God asks me to choose between Miss world, Miss universe and you, I will select you because you are my world and universe. You are the most beautiful, sweet and amazing thing that could have happened to me, and Iam blessed to have you in my life. If the reason why I feel the way I feel is because of you, I can only give back by devoting you all my love, respect, attention and care by dedicating you the deepest and truest of loves, and by making myself accessible for anything you may want or need.
When I think about you, I feel like I have everything a man could wish for; a beautiful wife and even a better cook. Yes Natasha you have prepared some of the best food I have ever had. I will fall sick if I don’t eat food prepared by you.
May life keep on blessing us with each other’s company. May our existence be filled with love, fondness, care and gentleness you give. May I start to dedicate you with what’s most heartfelt and best in me.
Now that I have declared my love to you, I hope you wont look apathetically at me.I don’t know if this letter will change the way you feel for me, but I feel somewhat thrilled for having clearly expressed my feelings I had for you for such a long time.
Now unless and until you find a guy who loves you and praises your cooking style the way I do, I wont divorce you.
P.S. I still Love you and will do so till death do us part.
Your Loving Husband,
Arvind
The clock struck 6a.m. and the alarm went off which made Natasha get up. She saw a letter lying besides her. She opened it and started reading. As she was reading her eyes became moist. Once she finished reading it, she saw Arvind, who was sitting on the couch next to their bed. He smiled at her and asked her “Tell me what is so beautiful about this morning?” Natasha replied ”Your letter”. Arvind smiled and said “No my dear, its not my letter, its the glow on your face that I can see today. I have been an insensitive man who could not understand his woman, but Natasha you have made me realize what I have been missing since years. I regret the fact that I have wasted 3 years to say what I should have said on day 1. I immersed myself so much in work that I forgot that I have a beautiful wife back home. You give me this sense of belonging and Im truly proud to have you in my life. Iam at peace with myself and this is because I know you are there for me. My soul is filled with joy and happiness whenever you smile and your smile is far more valuable than 1000’s of deals which I do and the dollars that I have earned till date.” Tears were rolling down Natasha’s cheek.
“What took you so long to express yourself Arvind?” Natasha asked in a choked voice. Arvind looked in her eyes blinked once and replied “ You know Iam not that good when it comes to expressing feelings”. Natasha hugged Arvind and said “You are simply the best Arvind. Look so beautifully you have expressed yourself. How can I not love you?
Arvind looked in her eyes and asked “Natasha, will God be angry on me?” Natasha was surprised to hear this question and asked Arvind “What for?” Arvind replied ”I love you more than HE does” Natasha hugged him again as tears continued to come down her cheeks and she whispered ”HE wont be angry”.
"Start packing your bags Natasha, I have booked our tickets to Paris. We will be leaving on Sunday for 2 weeks”
She Kissed him and said “Arvind I love you”. “I love you too Natasha”
To be Contd...
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- P.S. I Still Love You - Part 3
The sun was setting and the lights brightened up the New York City. It was 8pm and Arvind returned home from another day at work. He headed straight to the shower. The pain was still there. Eyes were still...
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Thanks Naz for your wonderful comments. A lot of work had gone to make this story and to give this ending. Iam really glad you liked it.
"It's not about algorithms...we learn as we move along." SO true. We make our own mistakes and find our own solutions. Good of Arvind to have realized the most precious thing in his life before it was too late. Very beautiful story. (BTW there was a movie by the same title). Good work.
Such a lovely story. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Very well expressed..well done..
God!! I wish you could have done it differently..........
"I want to be your fingers so that tomorrow when we get old, I will be able to cut your hair form your nose".....gross!! wat were u thinkin when u wrote this.....thats why it's said pending tasks affect your mind and hence ur writing ;)
and .......“Natasha, will God be angry on me?”
make an original effort dear.....quoting from movies..wouldn't really help....and esp. from crappy movies!! ;)
sorry fr the bad testimonial.....:) I am honest to the core ;)
Thanks Nimmi for your honest comments. Its a perspective thing, you did not like certain parts of the story, i wrote what i felt like, and it is not always I will write according to the expectations, but your point has been well taken and about the movie thing, I actually liked that part, so i incorporated it, again a perspective, something you didnt like, but I liked...neways Iam glad to receive constructive criticisms, it will help me in the long run. Thanks for commenting
Hi Jay...Thanks for finally giving this Part 2 to all of us :).
1 thing that I felt while reading Arvind's letter was I cudn't feel tat luv,repentance in his letter like d way I cud feel the pain gelled with luv in Natasha's letter.I cudn't symapthise with his letter coz the emotions dint cum out too well.At times,I felt things were contradictory when I related it with Part 1. Ex. Part 1 letter : You don’t share anything with me Arvind. Part 2 letter: I have been a loner, because I have dedicated my life to work. I have missed much in life because I did not have a companion, a friend, someone whom I could speak my heart out to.................. wat I mean to say is her complain tat Arvind doesn't share n his wish tat he wanted to speak out shud hv caused no problems.
Also tat nose hair part was bad yaar....pyaar k beech nose hair ko laane ki kya zarurat thi...:)
The latter part of it described a good morning for both. The ending part was gud abt Paris..if husband's get so senti on reading letter from their wife's, I wud do it every other day post marriage.Like tat, I shall hv seen the entire world in 1 month :)
Hey JB,
you asked for my comments, and I was going to write them honestly, as I always do... but, Nimmi and Arti have already done the work, and I fully agree with both of them.
The end is too cliched, you could have thought something more creative. Part 1 was better than this one, it looked like the feelings of any housewife. The second part is (don't mind me saying that), a mixture of all the romantic movies you have seen at IMT for 2 years.
I think you can do something better than that.
Thanks Anjali for your insights and your comments.
Thanks redelf for stopping by and comments
Thanks aarti and meghana for your constructive criticisms. I truly appreciate that. I write with my heart and there will be times when my writings wont appeal to all and sundry. The nose hair part was euphemism for weak fingers and Iam surprised everyone took that literally. I saw romance in that small act but lot of my readers found that gross. I guess i was ahead of my time to think in that manner, but I stand by what I write, and I appreciate the feelings of my readers. Iam writer still under construction so sometimes people may not like what i write. At the end of the day even if 7/10 people like what I write , then Iam happy.
Thankful to all of you and this is one hub, where I have got mixed response and criticisms which I have taken in the right spirit and which will help me in future. Cheers
Beautifully written. One can just understand what Arvind feels for his wife, and how much he wants her back. While reading through the letter i thought he over did it a bit, like seeming too desperate and 'maska-ofying' types but nonetheless shows that he really cant do without her, and is really regretting whatever's happened.. guess its true that in marriages sometimes showing love is really as important as just merely feeling it for someone.. Good Job, Jay!
thanks jyoti for an honest comment, really appreciate. you always encourage my writings and Im glad you liked the story. Thanks for commenting. Cheers
Jayb..I'm so glad of the happy ever after ending!:)Hate sad endings.Whatever he wrote,since he was able to convince her..thats good.:)There's no gaurentee that the next guy will be any better,so better stick to the drab who loves you..lol!Worldly wise comment from a friend who has seen many more summers than you..LOL!
I really enjoy reading your hubs. You have the ability to hold my attention with your writings and I actually look forward to reading more of your work.
Thanks Tonie for your kind words of encouragement. Im happy that my hubs could hold your attention. It feels great to receive sch nice comments. Cheers
Part I and now Part II--I was hoping for some twists but I guess, happy endings make people smile. The world is full of sadness and everyday, people part ways because of the misunderstanding of the algorithms of love (I like the use of this "algorithm" word as it aptly mirrors Arvind's emotional make-up).
Nice job on painting little vivid pictures !
Thanks anglnw for your comments. I wanted a happy ending an as u rightly pointed out the world is full of sadness. So let us be positive so that the world is better place to live.
Totally agree with you--we need more stories with "sunset, happily ever after" endings.
ok seriously i didn't expect the ending though...It totally blew my mind! Amazing and you really pulled it in an amazing way..I really loved it and it really made me think about some stuff. Totally awesome and i hope you keep on going with writing because i am really satisfied. You just made my day LOL
It held my attention ..... I am not a sloppy kind of person, but in fact I do hear those kind of comments all the time from my other half... he expressess his feeling much better in that respect.
i don't know whether it is a self protection thing, but when I am reading about how he is going to do so much for her, I kinda think what if he dies first....
I personally would have used the expression, I love you more than I love god. A lot of people are taught in their religion god comes first and feel a genuine guilt about loving a person more... besides how do you know how much god loves her?????
I would have prefered her to have found that letter after he had been killed in a car accident... cos like where do things go from where you are now.
You are a really good writer, not many writers would hold my attention as you did....
If you are happy with it leave it.... or you could take everyone thoughts and play around with it a bit
TO Uriel: Thanks so much once again for your comment. Iam so glad that to liked it. I wanted to keep my story simple and everybody expected a twist, thats y you felt as unexpected. Thanks again for stopping by and sharing your views.
TO Brenda: Thanks so much for writing a long and a wonderful comment. I really appreciate your thoughts and views that you have shared with me. Iam honoured that I could hold your attention. Its a pleasure.
I also want to thank you for inspiring me to think beyond this part. Im soon going to write part 3 which will have a twist, and I will change the status of this hub as "TO be contd". I wasnt thinking of continuing this story further, but now I will. Again a big thanks.
well I think it is definately worth carrying on with it. Any woman would love to imagine this man would be saying these things to her, but just dont go too far so that it becomes un believable
I don't know why but when I read it I thought of Dr Zhavago, did you see that film and the writer in it....Omar Sharif.... how he felt the his two women he was trying to balance at the same time.... please dont ask me why but it is a compliment
Thanks brenda for stopping by and commenting again. I truly appreciate your views. BTW just enlighten me on Dr Zhavago, havent watched that movie. And yes work on part 3 has begun. Cheers
good
I am speechless.....I am I am js so lost in your writing..amazing work..:)
Really beautiful story :) It really makes it clear what's really important in life
Ah this second point did not let me down at all....Ah it made me cry so beautifully written and I am so happy for the people which shows that you bring life to your writing... wonderful and I would like an ending like this please ???? god??? anyone :)
Shalini: Glad you liked it
Kasipal: Yes its imp to know what are our priorities in life.
Dotty1: Just believe in love..things will fall in place. Thanks for your kind comments. Really appreciate it.
A touching story , very beautiful !!
nazishnasim 3 years ago
Happy Endings always make me happy. Cute and sweet story with an equally cute and sweet ending - something which we can all achieve if we put in a little thought to our relationships. Thankyou for making the 'reader' think Jay :).